I feel as if I have only come across boys at my time at UT. There is no such thing as men on this campus... or at least not in my experience. It's incredibly frustrating. Especially when I know that this thing called "man" does exist.
Examples: my dad, my best friends' boyfriends, and just genuine guys that are my friends, but neither of us are interested in each other in that way.
I am a wild and strong personality and am confident in the way I come across to people. I curse too much and spill things on myself and speak my mind. I am too forward when it comes to boys, but honestly it's because they are just that-- boys.
A man would never let me be forward because they would come up to me first, right? My friends tell me how they met their boyfriends, or in the words of Carrie, "man friend" (which sounds like a dog, as said by Big), and I know that their relationships started because of the man.
But, I am someone who goes for what I want in all aspects of life, whether it is school, in my sorority, and yes, boys. So, boys are taken aback when I go after what I want. My strong personality that has been with me ever since I was little, and one I cannot get rid of scares off these boys.
It is incredibly annoying.
And of course, I always think it's me. But, I know it's not at the same time.
I just have to wait. One of my best friends had waited for such a long time and is the happiest she has ever been because she met the man of her dreams.
At this point, I just want to focus on my sisters and family. They are the ones that truly care about me. And of course... why do we always focus on the thing that we don't have when all of the things we do have are fabulous?
Plus, let's be honest. Men will never fulfill you as much as the bond you have with your friends. The bond I have with my sisters, even through fights, is stronger than any other relationship I ever had, other than with my family. Through everything, they are there for me at my best and worst. When I'm feeling lonely, I remember they are my soul mates.
SIGMA LOVE AND MINE.
--Samantha
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